I'm 18 Now... :-)

I am 18 now. I’m old enough to buy Cigarettes, Beer, etc. Old enough to play the lottery. I’ve messed up a lot in life. The worst part is knowing I’m not done messing up. I’ve failed classes and I’ve failed to see the point in doing certain things. I am more wise and more determined in my actions. But To me, I am still a kid. I’m not ready for love. I’m not ready for bills. I’m not ready to buy a house. I’m not ready to have a real job. I’m not ready to be called Uncle Vishal. Maybe I am ready. And I just don’t want to be. Being 18 has made me realize a lot. These things are slowly approaching and I don’t want them to. I’m scared and I am not ready. For anything. Life’s too unexpected.